I took eleven days of ‘vacation’ from work initially because I thought I had some plans in my mind to go on vacation but it didn’t went through for the tenth time or so. Since last weekend the thought started to pop in my head: “Catarina prepare yourself mentally because next week is the week you’re going back to work”. I tried not to think too much about it, but I have to I’m a person that requires to get whatever information before hand to start processing for what’s next to come.
Whenever you feel discomfort in your mind regarding a situation in this case going back to work you just want to get away from it but I can’t unfortunately.
As much as a positive person that I am, always trying to see the good in everything it’s difficult to do something that you are pretty much done with mentally. I have been working in the retail department for over five years, initially I loved it because I love cosmetic products it’s a local owned company etc.. The thing is there’s so much restrictions especially with everything going on, constantly cleaning everything, you have to stay on top of everything 24/7, so much pressure and my monthly payment doesn’t cover all my bills.
Each month our salary is underneath our minimum wage on a monthly basis they look how much we’ve sold and only management and the director will decide if we do receive a little commission extra on our paycheck with no notice or communication at all. It’s all these things combined that makes me not wanna leave my house.
The job is not fun anymore if you’re a weak minded person or someone with no character you can easily get depressed, angry, sad and it’s okay to feel all of this. It doesn’t necessarily make you weak but you can mentally just crash and depression for an instance is something serious it can effect you in ways that you can’t imagine.
I know there are so many BIGGER problems going on in the world and you sure don’t need to hear mine. It’s good to vent and share your journey with someone else. The importance of having good, optimistic, down to earth family or friends around you is a +++. Today I’m gonna try to stay positive and hope my working hours passes by FAST like speedy gonzales😂
Be sure to know that we all have problems, challenges in our day to day life. The only way to overcome it is to keep pushing forward and hope for better days ahead. Thank you for stopping by.. I sure do appreciate ya’ll!