This Is How I’m Feeling Today | ChitChat

I took eleven days of ‘vacation’ from work initially because I thought I had some plans in my mind to go on vacation but it didn’t went through for the tenth time or so. Since last weekend the thought started to pop in my head: “Catarina prepare yourself mentally because next week is the week you’re going back to work”. I tried not to think too much about it, but I have to I’m a person that requires to get whatever information before hand to start processing for what’s next to come.

Whenever you feel discomfort in your mind regarding a situation in this case going back to work you just want to get away from it but I can’t unfortunately.

As much as a positive person that I am, always trying to see the good in everything it’s difficult to do something that you are pretty much done with mentally. I have been working in the retail department for over five years, initially I loved it because I love cosmetic products it’s a local owned company etc.. The thing is there’s so much restrictions especially with everything going on, constantly cleaning everything, you have to stay on top of everything 24/7, so much pressure and my monthly payment doesn’t cover all my bills.

Each month our salary is underneath our minimum wage on a monthly basis they look how much we’ve sold and only management and the director will decide if we do receive a little commission extra on our paycheck with no notice or communication at all. It’s all these things combined that makes me not wanna leave my house.

The job is not fun anymore if you’re a weak minded person or someone with no character you can easily get depressed, angry, sad and it’s okay to feel all of this. It doesn’t necessarily make you weak but you can mentally just crash and depression for an instance is something serious it can effect you in ways that you can’t imagine.

I know there are so many BIGGER problems going on in the world and you sure don’t need to hear mine. It’s good to vent and share your journey with someone else. The importance of having good, optimistic, down to earth family or friends around you is a +++. Today I’m gonna try to stay positive and hope my working hours passes by FAST like speedy gonzales😂

Be sure to know that we all have problems, challenges in our day to day life. The only way to overcome it is to keep pushing forward and hope for better days ahead. Thank you for stopping by.. I sure do appreciate ya’ll!


  1. Aleana says:

    This is so relatable. I use to work retail and after not being recognized, having people i trained become managers I left and found another job and became manager in less than a year. Still i was unsatisfied. Keep pushing thru this even tho it sucks. Stay sane and keep your goals in mind. Wish you luck!

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    1. Yes Aleana we can definitely relate on this. Who knows maybe I will get a better job in the future😀. Thank you for keeping my spirits high at least I’m not the only one feeling this way


  2. Chocoviv says:

    I worked on retail for 20 years so I know what you mean…. it can get exhausting sometimes…. stay strong and we are here for you!

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    1. If you’ve worked for over 20 years you know how it feels, so happy I got a community of uplifting and encouraging people. Thank you so much🤎

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  3. Ribbonfairy says:

    Sending you prayers and positive vibes

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    1. Thank you 🧡 appreciate it

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  4. Ribbonfairy says:

    I’m still struggling to get a job

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    1. These days it’s hard also depends the type of job you’re looking for.

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      1. Ribbonfairy says:

        Yeah it’s really difficult

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  5. Thank you for being so honest and open, this is so important to talk about! Sending you all the positive vibes xxx

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    1. This past year I’ve opened myself more to my readers because life is real over here. Thank you for the well wishes! 🌹


  6. I pray for you my sista with the job thing. And there is nothing wrong with a good cry or vent. Hey however you need to purge it from your system…then get er’ done. LOL. I know things on the job can be daunting but hang in there because from that opportunity may come another. I’ve been at my job for over 20 years and I don’t know how I maintained. I just kept in mind that everything else was bigger than me and as a single Mom I needed to provide. We all sacrifice for our kids right. Oh and Happy Mother’s Day!

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    1. That’s right..everything for the kids! You know something I know I can do better as well, I can get something better at the same time enjoying it. There’s no way I can get a better position where I’m at right now because only family and good good friends get the chance to get a good and so much better position in this company. Which I’m not mad at, it is what it is. Awh thank you sweetheart wishing you a blessed Mother’s Day🌷


  7. Shelly DS says:

    You’ll be alright Cata. It’s ok to not always be 100% okay or optimistic. It’s called being real 😉

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    1. I know I will😊 thank you so much 🧡

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  8. aisasami says:

    I know that feeling well. We have to go to work for money but it isn’t the work we want to do. I am trying to figure out how to do work that can make me happy and sustain me.

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    1. Same here🤍 must stay grounded and grateful but still going for what we really want. It’s not impossible


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